I have battled depression off and on since I was 12 and I am almost 50. I have been having some very low points lately and have been seeing my psychiatrist more to try to get my meds right. I saw her this morning and she completely got what I was saying about AA and 12-step. I had a feeling she understood before because she never called me on my complaints or tried to correct me on them. Today she acknowledged that she absolutely understood where I was coming from, wow, relief. She is fairly young, so more professionals might be catching on, or at least I hope so. In the midst of a lot of personal pain, this was a small flicker acknowledging that I am not someone who is turning their back on "miracles" but someone who is genuinely seeking real help. I am not "dishonest", as an AA friend recently accused me of being, but I am the most honest I have been in my life. I still feel like HELL but maybe there is hope for a new direction in my health. I have a disease, it's called depression, not self-centeredness, not self-pity, not lack of meetings. My brain chemistry doesn't work right and dammit, that's ok so long as I am doing all I can to get the medical help I need.