The Big Plan

& as always I found it wanting, I aint sick, it's you that professors to be disease Beckit of shit, fk off & get a real job ya spineless bludger.

Suicide is not a verb.

I've noticed Clara's pretty overt and implacable hostility to Massive too. I've got my own theories about this, but don't want to derail the thread by going into them.

It doesn't upset me. I just found her to be rather pathetic. She came running to the forum to invite everyone to go to her blog to beat up on a woman that had a contrary view to hers. I found everyone that posted to have something of value to contribute, including the woman Massive wanted bullied for having the audacity to discuss personal accountability to the topic - 13 stepping. IMO, Massive behaved childishly toward those opposing her, shrillingly telling people not to come back and that she would call the police if they did ... and I thought she was unnecessarily personal and rude to me when she had invited us to be there.

But it is a good question. What does she really expect her "documentary" to do other than sit in the can? She wants to go into AA meetings with her cameras. What is the point in that? She thinks she is going to swoop into Holly Hill and "bring in" her cameras, as if that gives anyone any kind of power or will make the Sunrise Group go elsewhere? Can't she see what Anti-denial's own group's cameras show? A group of people minding their own business. I've read her remarks on other blogs, and I believe she was actually behind the recent Huff piece by Laura. Laura wasn't asked by anyone at Huff and she was going to tell me who asked her to if she had permission to tell me. Permission not granted, but she agreed that she had been approached with the idea. I realize that Monica had a tough time, spending decades in a program that she didn't want to be in... When we are in the rooms and we hear things such as that... the response is the same. "Why did you stay?" There are going to be some that will agree with her, others that won't and it is dismissed with a shrug and an eyeroll...because most AAs know that AA isn't the only way to get sober nor has it ever claimed to be. But Monica doesn't seem to understand that she is as in AA as she has ever been. She may feel "empowered" but I have to wonder how she possibly could feel empowered. She goes to these other meetings under the guise of investigating options, but then comes back here with a breathless report about how she told them of her experiences with AA. She says the same thing about AA meetings she attends. She sure told them, all right. Why not just admit that this has little to do with alternatives? Otherwise, I would think you'd patiently listen and not make the meeting about your and your angst with AA, yet that is how it is always delivered by her to us. She just posted how she hates going to AA meetings. Well, who is making Monica go? No one but Monica.

These are amateur efforts at best. I listened to one of her blogs, the one with Keeper, and it is obviously self-produced. I hope that she gets more expertise for her documentary. I thought something should have been asked of Keeper, and my question would have been to ask her why she never thought it was weird that her son had been given a 700k inheritance by someone he didn't really know for long and wasn't related to... I can't tell you how much on my radar those people would have been. I also don't know why Keeper wouldn't run her own check on the man. There have been online capabilities for a long time, used primarily for employment. But I realize that Monica is not an investigative reporter and the only qualification to be on her show is to be anti-AA. What I heard from Keeper was the continuation of step work. I didn't get that she was against AA, actually.

There you have it!