Re: abstinance or moderation
"Postby Avo » Wed Jun 27, 2012 10:19 am
I've been able to put all thinking in regards to Suboxone being "using" out of my mind. It no longer bothers me that I regularly take an opiate "like" medication. I'm glad that I've been able to do this because it really helps my PAWS. I am functional and much more productive. Happier even :D
I know that in terms of moderating opiate use I likely wouldn’t be successful. Besides it being against the law, which nowadays is a deterrent for me, I have never once used this drug with exercising an ability to control my intake. For this reason as well, I'll likely always need to refrain from recreational opiate use. I have decided that if I'm ever in need and able to take pain killers that I will do it without qualms. Another of the hundreds of pet peeves I have about the program is the so called expectation that addicts or even "alcoholics" need to suffer pain in order to maintain their clean time. The decision seems to be made for others and instilled by others into their brains at a time that they themselves are not suffering. Kind of unfair, don’t ya think?"
"Postby Avo » Sat Jun 30, 2012 10:58 pm
I've thought a bit about how different I would do things and now that I'm on the Sub I wish that I had tried this route years ago. It had been offered but I was determined to be "clean" by program standards. It's difficult to know how it might have been better for me or not. Since I'm on a higher dose atm and slowly working my way down, I am questioning it again now, :lol: Since the paws were so awful for me all I do is have to remember the times when life didn't seem worth living and the questions get answered right away."
"Postby Avo » Wed Jul 04, 2012 7:04 am
My bit about the PAWS was for me a way to keep it in perspective. The Sub has caused some issues of concern and I was prepared to face them. But for now, comparing the two is night and day. Living like life it was a disaster when in fact I have much to live and be happy for (like you), wasn't living. I needed to make a change and go in a different direction. Now I feel good. Normal, and happy. Thanks!"
Trisha wrote:
Avocagno, has not even finished her recovery yet. She is still using Suboxone to treat her PAWS. Which in and of itself is a good thing, but this chick is still a puppy when it comes to being able to stay clean and sober on her own. Yet here she is harassing other members who don't agree with her naive views about AA.
Girl try this, when you and your doctor think you are ready get off of suboxone and the ambien you are taking everyday. Then come back here and talk all shit you want, but I don't think you will.
Avo, you are not fully rid of opiates yet, you are still dependent. I am not saying this is wrong because it isn't. I just think you should tell everyone before you run off at the mouth about opinions concerning sobriety, how sobriety should be achieved, who is making the decisions about the quality and consistency of anyone's sobriety. FINISH YOUR RECOVERY PROGRAM!!!
I also believe that after you have been clean for a while, all this Missouri trailer trash shit you have been talking about that has to do with me and these other people, whether real or fancy, will end. You will finally grow the fuck up and realize your lies are not necessary.
Avo, most of us here are not in recovery, recovering or even in NA, AA, SMART, HAMS or any other form of recovery program. We have left it all in our past. I am talking decades ago.
Suboxone wasn't even available when I was banging dope. You either kicked it cold turkey or you went on methadone. I never considered methadone as a viable alternative, just my opinion.
Yes my way was painful (probably beyond anyones belief) but I saw many before me do it and they succeeded.
Last....
Avo, you lied about me. Now whether you want to call me Danny, Trisha, Claude or who ever, it still doesn't wash away the fact you lied about me calling your home and threatening your son.
This never happened because if it did, I would not be here, writing on this site. I would be in jail, awaiting trial for a prison sentence.
So why don't you quit with all this other bullshit and tell everyone here what a piece of shit you were to accuse me of such a horrible allegation.
NOTE.......
(Here are your contradicting statements, actually you are the liar. Talk about feeling guilty Avo, how about being a mother and using your son in a plot to frame someone else on a AA web site)
Avo wrote:
Wed, 06/13/2012 - 18:27
"Well Trisha, I've decided to take you up on your offer to get the police involved because I am taking it that seriously. Internet investigation has shown that you are using a proxy IP address on this site. Further investigation has revealed your actual personal IP address however. If you would please just confirm that your IP address is 68.97.248.86, I will forward this to the police and we will let them take this further. Because I am not a lowlife like you I will not post your full home address."
Avo wrote:
Tue, 07/03/2012 - 22:17
"Here is another one that you left in your trail of harassment around the web as Calinda, TraceLIn, Perplexity: 166.183.23.116 . I've never accused you, Trisha, of the phone call made to my house, I didn't say a word to you about it. It was you that came to the thread either because you ARE guilty or you FEEL guilty probably because of the mass of abuse that you have put others through over the years."
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Trisha K.
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 18:42
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28G 1/2 is the best. Ironic
28G 1/2 is the best. Ironic she knew...her witticism was dripping all over the comment.
this gimmick gets you blasted quick. Best for feet and hands.
This was my opinion back in the day.
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
Ironic
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 19:03
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I thought you weren't
I thought you weren't engaging in this conversation?
Next time, instead of waiting for me to set the parameters, why not just google it?
Trisha K.
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 20:18
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And this is why I don't.
And this is why I don't. Because I have to read comments from a little shit bird like you, still working a recovery medication program.
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
Persephone In Exile
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 09:07
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Yeah, Ironic. She was banging
Yeah, Ironic. She was banging dope long before any of us were born! You know, most women in their 30s (wasn't that the claim?) who once did heroin managed to do it all before anyone else was born. Which makes Trisha either the unknown companion of Doctor Who or not who she claims to be. I'm shocked.
http://badrecovery.blogspot.com/
Trisha K.
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 20:10
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PIE, are you into girls, are
PIE, are you into girls, are you a lesbian? This is a serious question.
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
Conan
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 20:21
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Just for you Trisha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7pyH3l9nEs
And why were you posting on Danny Bennison's blog?
Danny is currently "Rachel" - watch out folks, he's learned how to use a spell checker...lol
Persephone In Exile
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 20:55
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ROFLMAO!!!!!!
ROFLMAO!!!!!!
http://badrecovery.blogspot.com/
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 20:59
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You guys... I think she's
You guys... I think she's married and has some kids.
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
Persephone In Exile
Fri, 07/06/2012 - 14:57
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http://badrecovery.blogspot.com/
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 21:12
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The Cabot Trail. One day....
The Cabot Trail. One day.... But, again, nothing new. I've talked about riding to Canada.
I thought you said I was boring, PIE! I don't think we have a 45.
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
Persephone In Exile
Fri, 07/06/2012 - 14:57
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http://badrecovery.blogspot.com/
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 21:26
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I am sure you are kidding and
I am sure you are kidding and are being misled, but it's been fun. Besides, I am a knife girl. But, that is right. I mentioned we went to the gun club a couple of weeks ago. But we aren't GWB fans. Not Obama, either, and not Mitt.
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
Persephone In Exile
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 21:38
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She just keeps on ticking....
She just keeps on ticking......
http://badrecovery.blogspot.com/
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 21:43
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Can you tell me why I shouldn
Can you tell me why I shouldn't?
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
Persephone In Exile
Fri, 02/08/2013 - 20:28
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http://badrecovery.blogspot.com/
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 22:08
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My facebook account is not
My facebook account is not deleted, PIE. I was just on it. Your obsession continues.
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
Trisha K.
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 21:20
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@Clara,
@Clara,
I think your right but it made her mentally fumble around for a bit. Which gave you a rest from her stupidity.
Take care sweetie, Beddie PIE time for me.
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
Conan
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 21:07
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You still haven't answered asswipe
Why were you posting on Danny Bennison's blog?
Danny is currently "Rachel" - watch out folks, he's learned how to use a spell checker...lol
billybudd
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 21:24
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What was 'asswipe''s question?
Can't bother to keep up with twaddle. Must be an alarming lack of gravity on my part. Sorry
live_free_or_die
Sat, 07/07/2012 - 10:01
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hey billy buddy
Been missing ya.
You scene judge becket?
Alcoholics Anonymous: MyNotGodHasItCovered®
http://www.expaa.org/
http://bereanresearch.com/
http://badrecovery.blogspot.com/
NOT AA:
Rational Recovery, SOS, HAMS
http://alcoholabusesolutions.com/
DeConstructor
Wed, 07/04/2012 - 18:15
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Trish scrawled:
Trish scrawled:
"Girl try this, when you and your doctor think you are ready get off of suboxone and the ambien you are taking everyday"
So 'girl try this' is not counseling? You are counseling, you are also doing in a real assholish way. You are simply trying to obsfucate what you have done.
I think the readership of this thread is quite capable of making their own minds up regarding the words YOU WROTE.
This type of mentality, although common in the rooms, has unrivaled danger. You can lie, twist, proclaim, prosyltize, or spin your words, but YOU WROTE them.
Once again, in a shining example of rigorous honesty and assclownery, you have exposed youself for bing the LIAR you are. I might also add that people who continue to promote this dangerous and uncredible line of so called reasoning have a lot of blood on their hands.
Kill anyone lately with your your counsel trish?
Trisha K.
Wed, 07/04/2012 - 18:21
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DeCon, take your anti vitriol
DeCon, take your anti vitriol and go run your theories on someone who gives a shit, I don't.
I am not in the rooms of AA (left a long time ago) nor do I spout off anything to do with your ideas of AA.
Nice try.
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
DeConstructor
Wed, 07/04/2012 - 18:25
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No what you do is worse
as you continue to counsel people to stop taking prescribed medication. And you LIE about it, and you cowardly try to avoid the questioning of your outrageoous claims and the web of lies you create to try to spin your way out of it.
You are a LIAR.. You are also a busted LIAR. This will be repeated, including YOUR WRITING under YOUR posts in the future. You have been exposed for the FRAUD you are.
Trisha K.
Wed, 07/04/2012 - 18:31
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Thank you Decon for this distinguish honor.
I get my own signature under all my posts with you writing the forward. My My...sigh...I am blushing.
"No what you do is worse as you continue to counsel people to stop taking prescribed medication. And you LIE about it, and you cowardly try to avoid the questioning of your outrageoous claims and the web of lies you create to try to spin your way out of it.
You are a LIAR.. You are also a busted LIAR. This will be repeated, including YOUR WRITING under YOUR posts in the future. You have been exposed for the FRAUD you are."
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
DeConstructor
Wed, 07/04/2012 - 18:33
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Yes that is what I wrote
and unlike you, I will stand behind my comments. I meant them.
Conan
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 19:55
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bennison9.blogspot
Why were you posting on the above site yesterday before it was removed? PKats
Danny is currently "Rachel" - watch out folks, he's learned how to use a spell checker...lol
Trisha K.
Wed, 07/04/2012 - 21:19
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DeCon here is a counseling session from NA/WS
Sorry, I don't think I sounded like this nor ever intended to.
http://www.orange-papers.org/forum/node/339
Ironic
Thu, 09/29/2011 - 20:49
I found it
WORLD SERVICE BOARD OF TRUSTEES BULLETIN #29
Regarding Methadone and Other
Drug Replacement Programs
This bulletin was written by the World Service Board of Trustees in 1996. It represents the views of the board at the time of writing.
Not all of us come to our first NA meeting drug free. Some of us were uncertain about whether recovery was possible for us and initially came to meetings while still using.
Others came to their first meetings on drug replacement programs such as methadone and found it frightening to consider becoming abstinent.
One of the first things we heard was that NA is a program of complete abstinence and "The only requirement for membership is the desire to stop using." Some of us, upon hearing these statements, may have felt that we were not welcome at NA meetings until we were clean. But NA members reassured us that this was not the case and we were encouraged to "keep coming back." We were told that through listening to the experience, strength, and hope of other recovering addicts that we too could find freedom from active addiction if we did what they did.
Many of our members, however, have expressed concern about individuals on drug replacement programs. Questions come up regarding such individuals' membership status, ability to share at meetings, lead meetings, or become trusted servants on any level. "Are these members clean?" they ask. "Can one really be a 'member' and still be using?"
Perhaps by answering the most important question first—the issue of membership—we can establish a context by which to approach this issue. Tradition Three says that the only requirement for NA membership is a desire to stop using. There are no exceptions to this. Desire itself establishes membership; nothing else matters, not even abstinence. It is up to the individual, no one else, to determine membership. Therefore, someone who is using and who has a desire to stop using, can be a member of NA.
Members on drug replacement programs such as methadone are encouraged to attend NA meetings. But, this raises the question: "Does NA have the right to limit members participation in meetings?" We believe so. While some groups choose to allow such members to share, it is also a common practice for NA groups to encourage these members (or any other addict who is still using), to participate only by listening and by talking with members after the meeting or during the break. This is not meant to alienate or embarrass; this is meant only to preserve an atmosphere of recovery in our meetings.
Our Fifth Tradition defines our groups' purpose: to carry the message that any addict can stop using and find a new way to live. We carry that message at our recovery meetings, where those who have some experience with NA recovery can share about it, and those who need to hear about NA recovery can listen. When an individual under the influence of a drug attempts to speak on recovery in Narcotics Anonymous, it is our experience that a mixed, or confused message may be given to a newcomer (or any member, for that matter) For this reason, many groups believe it is inappropriate for these members to share at meetings of Narcotics Anonymous.
It may be argued that a group's autonomy, as described in our Fourth Tradition, allows them to decide who may share at their meetings. However, while this is true, we believe that group autonomy does not justify allowing someone who is using to lead a meeting, be a speaker, or serve as a trusted servant. Group autonomy stands only until it affects other groups or NA as a whole. We believe it affects other groups and NA as a whole when we allow members who are not clean to be a speaker, chair a meeting, or be a trusted servant for NA.
Many groups have developed guidelines to ensure that an atmosphere of recovery is
maintained in their meetings. The following points are usually included:
Suggesting that those who have used any drug within the last twenty-four hours refrain from sharing, but encouraging them to get together with members during the break or after the meeting.
Abiding by our fellowship's suggested clean time requirements for service positions.
Seeking meeting leaders, chairpersons, or speakers who help further our primary purpose of carrying the message to the addict who still suffers.
We make a distinction between drugs used by drug replacement programs and other prescribed drugs because such drugs are prescribed specifically as addiction treatment. Our program approaches recovery from addiction through abstinence, cautioning against the substitution of one drug for another. That's our program; it's what we offer the addict who still suffers. However, we have absolutely no opinion on methadone maintenance or any other program aimed at treating addiction. Our only purpose in addressing drug replacement and its use by our members is to define abstinence for ourselves.
Our fellowship must be mindful of what kind of message we are carrying if a still-using addict leads a meeting, or becomes a trusted servant. We believe that under these circumstances we would not be carrying the Narcotics Anonymous message of recovery. Permissiveness in this area is not consistent with our traditions. We believe our position on this issue reinforces our recovery, protects our meetings, and supports addicts in striving for total abstinence.
Note: This bulletin addresses the use of methadone maintenance as a drug replacement strategy. It is not addressing the medicinal use of methadone as a pain killer. We encourage those who have concerns about the use of methadone in pain management to refer to Narcotics Anonymous pamphlet, In Times of Illness.
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 11:33
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This sounds good. What is
This sounds good. What is wrong with it?
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
avogadno
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 08:43
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DeCon said: "No what you do
DeCon said: "No what you do is worse as you continue to counsel people to stop taking prescribed medication".
Which is exactly what is happening between the two of them are doing. The gist of their comments are that 'it's OK to use Suboxone to get clean but you're not really in recovery or clean if ya do'.
Thanks for pointing that out, DeCon. Typical AA prodding and predicting about someone else's life.
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Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 11:36
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I would never tell anyone not
I would never tell anyone not to take prescribed meds. Neither would AA.
I mentioned when I first got here that I knew people that went to methodone clinics for years. I asked then what was the difference between trading their addiction for this, and is there ever the goal of being off everything?
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
patti
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 19:36
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Clara,
Clara,
I have heard multiple AA members tell others @ meetings & outside of meetings not to take their medication & not to take any pain medication prescribed due to a surgery or accident or etc. I could be sworn in & testify to these statements in a court room. I heard it over & over. I heard many AA members tell recovering addicts that taking medications anti depressants or anti anxiety or pain meds for medical reasons & well then they are not truly sober & will relapse. I am not the only witness to this atrocious behavior of unqualified & lunatic AA members.
patti
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 19:41
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That would be a shame, Patti.
That would be a shame, Patti. I haven't heard that, but I have held meds for people that couldn't be depended to take them as prescribed because they were cross addicted. I remember hearing people say that they didn't want to take anything because of fear of relapse. A lady here had foot surgery and she stayed in the hospital overnight because her problem started with pain management gone awry. I knew people that didn't want to take anti-depressants and rebelled against it, but I wanted some when my dog died. I know some women tht supplemented their menopause treatment with them, too. I just haven't heard this "big deal" as you describe, and certainly not for things such as birth control and blood pressure, as one man posted. Why would anyone in AA care about something like those?
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
gigi
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 19:44
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Clara says
"I would never tell anyone not to take prescribed meds. Neither would AA. "
But you will tell them that they are not clean, sober, or working a good program. You will freely insult them at every turn. You will continue to give them advice and tell charming anectdotes on the subject, all the while claiming that you really have no opinion and don't know anything about drugs. But you'll sneak your little message in there. And you'll smile. So fucking sweet and caring, aren't you?
"If I forget who I am, I am myself. If I remember who I am, I am you."
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 20:15
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Who said that, Gigi? I asked
Who said that, Gigi? I asked a very legit question, especially in view of severall posts. If you cured yourself... why would you need supplemental drugs? Even if you don't agree with a step program, isn't it miseading to tell someone that your way worked for you and could work for them... when you are taking supplemental drugs? Seems like a fair question to ask.
And understand that I don't disagree with doing it if medically necessary, but I think it misleads people when you say you are cured and did it yourself.
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
Trisha K.
Wed, 07/04/2012 - 18:47
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Well good for you..
I hope you have a good go of it.
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
Ironic
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 10:31
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I have actually learned quite
I have actually learned quite a bit here.
Becket and Clara are the two most skilled trolls I've ever encountered.
becket
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 11:08
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Glad to be of service.
Glad to be of service.
“The essence of the independent mind lies not in what it thinks, but in how it thinks.”
― Christopher Hitchens, Letters to a Young Contrarian
Ironic
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 10:37
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Avo
The "am I really clean on sub?" question bothered me too until I realized that I really didn't give a shit what anyone in the program said. They didn't have anything I wanted (who cares if you are sober if you never hit the gym so you are fat and killing youself with coffee and cigarettes?)
I also realized that they change the definition of everything. Fuck what they think, I don't care if I meet the definition of "sober" in the AA dictionary, do you? Nah :)
becket
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 13:14
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Is hitting the gym
Is hitting the gym necessarily an integral part of everyone's sobriety? That may be part of your routine, but are you suggesting that if others don't follow suit they're wallowing in sloth? Would you also say that each and every one of those people smokes cigarettes and is fat? What are you saying here?
“The essence of the independent mind lies not in what it thinks, but in how it thinks.”
― Christopher Hitchens, Letters to a Young Contrarian
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 13:20
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AA is about alcohol, not
AA is about alcohol, not getting into shape, stopping smoking or giving up coffee. I guess it isn't about being in recovery but the one you had "problems" with...
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
Ironic
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 19:01
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Becket/hitting the gym
No, hitting the gym is not an integral part of everyone's sobriety, I'm just saying that it was hard for me to take seriously a wheezing fatass sucking on a cancer stick when they would tell me that using marijuana/having a beer/doing something other than attending meetings would keep me sick.
Trisha K.
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 19:28
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That fat ass sucking on a
That fat ass sucking on a cigg, just may save your life someday. It is the message, Ironic.
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
gigi
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 13:28
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I love coffee.
I love coffee.
I don't love cigarettes, but I haven't stopped smoking them.
Guess I'm screwed.
"If I forget who I am, I am myself. If I remember who I am, I am you."
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 13:49
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It will come in time. I
It will come in time. I actually think it is unhealthy to "stop everything." When I hear people say that in the rooms, I wonder if they aren't taking on too much at a time.
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
avogadno
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 19:31
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Hey Ironic,
Hey Ironic,
Before I started the Sub I debated the NA/AA stance out of my mind. It was a difficult decision to make, as I had been clean for a while and not wanting to get "dependent" on anything. It's never entered my mind since, though. It was the best medication decision I've ever made.
I'd hate to think that an onlooker is reading Clara and Danny's post and concerning themselves over their opinions.
In any case, :-) I agree, fuck what they think. The definitions of AA/NA are what we have left behind. Take care Ironic, thanks!
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Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 20:18
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Good lord, I would be more
Good lord, I would be more concerned that people care more over who you may or may not be than what you have to say on the forum about the topic! How misguided!
Absoutely! Make the best medical decisions you can and are fortunate to have available to you. I think you know that I would never have an issue over that.
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
Trisha K.
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 20:14
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Yes you do or you wouldn't be
Yes you do or you wouldn't be here.
“The more I traveled the more I realized that fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
Shirley MacLaine
gigi
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 13:54
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To each his own...I know that
To each his own...I know that I could quit smoking if I wanted to. I'm too damn lazy. No way I'm quitting coffee. I love coffee. Coffee is my hero.
"If I forget who I am, I am myself. If I remember who I am, I am you."
avogadno
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 19:35
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I'm soon gonna have to
I'm soon gonna have to entirely quit soon, lazy or not, lol. I agree about the coffee, Gigi. It's not going anywhere soon.
Pro Empowerment!
Truth about AA: http://orange-papers.org/menu1.html
Expose AA: http://www.expaa.org/
Clara
Thu, 07/05/2012 - 20:28
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Or Diet Coke... I just
Or Diet Coke... I just cannot move on from it.
Remember Christopher Stevens when you vote.
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