Orange, I love the way you intersperse your letters with the gosling photos - puts it all in perspective really. I said goodbye to my home group 2 nights ago, after being in aa for 2 and a half years. Initially, I was so grateful for all the handy hints and encouragement offered. My home group consists of some incredibly sincere, earnest, but i now realise - deluded people. That last meeting (bb study / cross talk discussion) I said absolutely nothing. All I could think was - this is complete bullshit. For a long time I have felt uncomfortable in aa: the contradictions; the bait and switch techniques; the gurus; time =status; the insistence on faith; the lack if proof; the dogmatic assertions that this is the only way. However, it wasn't until I read your work in the OP that I truly understood what had happened to me - I'd been brainwashed. You gave me the words to articulate how i felt. I'm not crazy after all for not being able to believe that there is an interventionist being out there with the ability to remove my character defects. I was looking got character defects I don't even have!! The concept of powerlessness is just as illogical. I'm not a failure for failing to believe in the illogical and unproven. And there are so many other people out there that feel the same way. Thank you so much for researching, clarifying, explaining. I feel free now.
I'm obviously new here. Have not read a newspaper or book since I found OP, ST and this forum - about 4weeks. Believe it's part of my deprogramming! I'm so grateful to have found these sites. Also relieved and, at the risk of sounding like an idiot, serene!
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DeConstructor
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 07:38
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Are you a dad yet orange?
Have there been complications?
For what it is worth, I have always thought Geronimo is a cool name. You could call it Moe.
btnben
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 07:40
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Don't you...
... have to turn it upside down and check for danglie bits of something before naming it?...lol
God damn it, get me a whiskey
Bill W, Deathbed
http://www.youtube.com/watch?source=patrick.net&v=Sdn3O6aaMNc
Orange
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 16:28
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Not yet
I'm still waiting impatiently. It could hatch any hour now. It may dawdle for a day or two because the temperature was a little cool when it started.
Of course I'm kind of sitting on pins and needles, but all signs are good.
http://www.orange-papers.org/orange-letters307.html#goslings2
Free
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 18:41
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Thank you Orange
Orange, I love the way you intersperse your letters with the gosling photos - puts it all in perspective really. I said goodbye to my home group 2 nights ago, after being in aa for 2 and a half years. Initially, I was so grateful for all the handy hints and encouragement offered. My home group consists of some incredibly sincere, earnest, but i now realise - deluded people. That last meeting (bb study / cross talk discussion) I said absolutely nothing. All I could think was - this is complete bullshit. For a long time I have felt uncomfortable in aa: the contradictions; the bait and switch techniques; the gurus; time =status; the insistence on faith; the lack if proof; the dogmatic assertions that this is the only way. However, it wasn't until I read your work in the OP that I truly understood what had happened to me - I'd been brainwashed. You gave me the words to articulate how i felt. I'm not crazy after all for not being able to believe that there is an interventionist being out there with the ability to remove my character defects. I was looking got character defects I don't even have!! The concept of powerlessness is just as illogical. I'm not a failure for failing to believe in the illogical and unproven. And there are so many other people out there that feel the same way. Thank you so much for researching, clarifying, explaining. I feel free now.
gigi
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 19:01
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Hi Free. Nice to meet you.
Hi Free. Nice to meet you.
"If I forget who I am, I am myself. If I remember who I am, I am you."
Free
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 19:14
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Hello
I'm obviously new here. Have not read a newspaper or book since I found OP, ST and this forum - about 4weeks. Believe it's part of my deprogramming! I'm so grateful to have found these sites. Also relieved and, at the risk of sounding like an idiot, serene!
DeConstructor
Tue, 05/22/2012 - 22:01
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Welcome to the forum Free
The truth will set you free, but it will piss you off first :)