dorak nob's blog

he has hacked, may not be the right word site. and your IP address and host will show up on something he calls TED TRACKER, Ted is out to destroy orange forum, who's paying you ted?

the chat room was especially helpful , the whole vibe was intended to help people in need, Trolls weren't allowed so the discussions were civil and informative . It's made me very sad. Anyone feel this?

today is my 34th wedding anniversary , while in AA my sponsor asked if my wife drank , I replied yes she's italian so drinks wine at meals and sometimes to relax, he informed me maybe I should think about separating . was I willing to go to any length for my sobriety, I thought what a dick she had stood by me and encouraged me to get help. Also he suggested I quit hanging out with my friends , who are good people they had encouraged me to seek help, so much for AA not being a cult .

So you quit drinking and drugging and you're bored, so you start going to meetings get a sponsor , then all hell breaks loose , drama.. you get the same drama as if you were still all fucked up. So you become a sponsor and the drama becomes even more intense. Then you hear someone at a meeting talk about the gallon of whiskey the case of beer the several bottles of wine they are going home to drink. Then you realize what binge drinking is . whew drama. At the same meeting a young pigeon explains how her higher power helped her color code her wardrobe. drama..

so fresh out of rehab.. was told to stay sober must do 90 in 90 , actually did 270 in 90, got a sponsor. was constantly told i must do steps, I had no problem in the beginning, I figured if that's what it took I was in. Quickly realized many people who had done the steps were constantly relapsing . When I started questioning why the steps weren't working keeping people sober was told they hadn't been honest on their fourth and fifth step. A friend of mine at this point committed suicide and instead of grieving all i heard was he never finished his fourth step.